Just last night, I revised my About Page to say that in the interest of being my authentic depressed self, I would not try to put a positive spin on this blog. I stand by that goal; I promise to endeavor to be depressing. But…what’s the harm in sprinkling a little bit of light here and there? Hence my new category Points of Light.
Movies shall fall under said category. Movies are points of light in my life. I love movies. I love going to the theatre and being shuffled along a long line of movie-going strangers. I love the smell of ridiculously over-priced popcorn. I love that it’s one of the few activities where I can be by myself and not feel too alone. I love the anonymity of it–sitting under a cloak of darkness, all eyes on a giant glowing screen.
I also find that it’s one of the few ways I’m able to relate to, you know, the humans. This has led to some very unproductive days, but it has also contributed to why I am still almost sane, or at the very least, not yet institutionalized.
And that leads me to my next point: movies are a great distraction. There are some days (okay, many days) when I just need to be distracted from myself. I know, you could argue that one should face their problems head on–that distractions only pull you farther away from your goals. But the thing is, it’s my Monster D that drags me away from the things that I care about, the things that used to matter to me. It’s my Monster D that tries to destroy any goals I might have. So it makes sense that distracting the monster would actually help me, even if just a little bit.
I think I’m going to compile a list of my favourite movies. Yes, I will make movie posts a regular thing, if only to ensure there is something to put under Points of Light.