I originally started on Blogger years before this. When I tried to import my posts from Blogger it didn’t work, so there are a lot of documented struggles that you will not find here.
When I set out to write a blog, I didn’t have a clear idea of what I wanted to write about, except that I knew it would most likely be a journal-style blog–you know the ones, it’s all about me, me, me!
Well, that is exactly what I did. But a theme did start to emerge: depression. This blog has basically become about that. After some consideration, I decided I wasn’t going to turn this new blog on WordPress into one of the many advice blogs out there. If I had, maybe I would have called it “How to Not Overcome Depression but Alienate Everyone You Know”. I considered this, because every time I reviewed my blog, I felt a little bad for my readers. Do they roll their eyes at my negativity? Do they think, “just get over it already”? Do I make people already struggling with a depression of their own feel worse?? I hope not. That’s not my intention. But I don’t feel qualified to give advice on this matter.
I also decided that I wasn’t going to try and put a positive spin on my life here in this blog. I wasn’t going to sugar-coat it. I wasn’t going to pretend that my depression hasn’t been the biggest influence on my life, that is hasn’t been all consuming. Because it has. I literally cannot remember a time in my life that I did not suffer from this Monster.
So there you have it. This is my depressing but honest blog about my struggle with my larger-than-life Monster D. You may find that it doesn’t all fit under the umbrella of depression. You may find that there are Points of Light and Everyday Life. I’m hoping that those posts will one day outnumber the rest. But until then, I apologize if this reads like the world’s most depressing and pointless and scattered book of all time.